Hickeys are Icky October 31, 2006

What’s on my mind right now? Nothing…I wish. But honestly, I can’t take much of anything right now. EVERY little, teeny tiny little thing is bothering me. The way my nose looks, the way my dog won’t SHUT THE HELL UP, the way the basement’s so fucking cold, how my mom incessently hums stupid showtunes, and last but definately not least on my complaint list right now, my boyfriend’s friends.

Honestly though, I hate my boyfriend’s friends! They’re like so…..ughh!! And he’s kinda weird/different when he’s around them. But like, I LOVE this kid, ya know?? So, I guess love doesn’t come without pain, lol. That sounds like a tacky…line or something. It’s bad, ’cause I’m such a pushover and I just take the crap that they dish out at me. It’s either like “slut” or “crackwhore,” they use that one a lot. And I guess I said something about me and my boyfriend having “hot sex in a car,” and I KNOW I never said or did that. It’s awful, and I don’t know what to do about it. Trust me, they’re a LOT worse than they sound.

Yeah, so I also just got fired from my job at the organic grocery store. It’s because I was eating the food. Cookies to be exact. I’m dumb.

Hm what else?  This GIANT HICKEY that I have on my neck!!!  I don’t think my mom’s seen it yet, and I reaaaally hope she hasn’t.  It’s kind of embarassing at school, and it’s in one of those places where it, like can’t be covered for anything, and concealer isn’t working.  Hickeys are icky.

That’s pretty much it for now. I’m working on getting my domain up, soooo wait a while? Thanks for all your patience!

Oh yes! October 21, 2006

Okay, so I have Paint Shop Pro again.  Not Photoshop or anything snazzy like that, but it’s something, right?  So hopefully I can make a layout or something.  PLUS!  I got hosted! <a href=”http://prettyskies.org”>Krystal</a> is going to host me!  I’ll have the site up soon. Until then, this is my home.

And DEFINATELY a photo dump next time.

Uh, as far as my personal life goes,  it’s great.  I’m doing okay without Claire, but it’s kind of depressing at school   But Ben’s always there, so it’s all good.  Yeah, that’s it.

Fine, just leave me here to ROT! October 11, 2006

Yeah, so as it goes in the Emo Kid song, “my life is spiraling downward,” is as my life is going. My best friend, Claire is going to GERMANY for a student exchange program. Wait, and get this: for SIX MONTHS!  I don’t know what I’m going to do, like I have friends, and I have Ben, but it’s still not the same as having a BEST friend!

I gotta go, but I’ll add onto this later!

Memorised the Way It Felt October 2, 2006

Uhh, homecoming was okay.  It really was all grinding, but Ben mostly just stood there with me, and we were holding hands, and we danced a little,  and kissed…a lot, I guess.

Is it possible to love someone after knowing them for two weeks?  Like, JUST two weeks?  I feel like know him so well, and I’m really sure of myself.  I just don’t want to do something that I’d regret later, or, like he’s not the person I thought he was.  I’m almost positive that’s not the case, and that’s that…but there’s still a little part of me that’s saying “stop!  it’s too fast, stay where you are!”

Well, I was goign to do a photo dump, and I might later, but I still need to edit many of them, so that will have to wait until later.  Thanks for the comments on my other blog!