Hickeys are Icky October 31, 2006

What’s on my mind right now? Nothing…I wish. But honestly, I can’t take much of anything right now. EVERY little, teeny tiny little thing is bothering me. The way my nose looks, the way my dog won’t SHUT THE HELL UP, the way the basement’s so fucking cold, how my mom incessently hums stupid showtunes, and last but definately not least on my complaint list right now, my boyfriend’s friends.

Honestly though, I hate my boyfriend’s friends! They’re like so…..ughh!! And he’s kinda weird/different when he’s around them. But like, I LOVE this kid, ya know?? So, I guess love doesn’t come without pain, lol. That sounds like a tacky…line or something. It’s bad, ’cause I’m such a pushover and I just take the crap that they dish out at me. It’s either like “slut” or “crackwhore,” they use that one a lot. And I guess I said something about me and my boyfriend having “hot sex in a car,” and I KNOW I never said or did that. It’s awful, and I don’t know what to do about it. Trust me, they’re a LOT worse than they sound.

Yeah, so I also just got fired from my job at the organic grocery store. It’s because I was eating the food. Cookies to be exact. I’m dumb.

Hm what else?  This GIANT HICKEY that I have on my neck!!!  I don’t think my mom’s seen it yet, and I reaaaally hope she hasn’t.  It’s kind of embarassing at school, and it’s in one of those places where it, like can’t be covered for anything, and concealer isn’t working.  Hickeys are icky.

That’s pretty much it for now. I’m working on getting my domain up, soooo wait a while? Thanks for all your patience!

Oh yes! October 21, 2006

Okay, so I have Paint Shop Pro again.  Not Photoshop or anything snazzy like that, but it’s something, right?  So hopefully I can make a layout or something.  PLUS!  I got hosted! <a href=”http://prettyskies.org”>Krystal</a> is going to host me!  I’ll have the site up soon. Until then, this is my home.

And DEFINATELY a photo dump next time.

Uh, as far as my personal life goes,  it’s great.  I’m doing okay without Claire, but it’s kind of depressing at school   But Ben’s always there, so it’s all good.  Yeah, that’s it.

Fine, just leave me here to ROT! October 11, 2006

Yeah, so as it goes in the Emo Kid song, “my life is spiraling downward,” is as my life is going. My best friend, Claire is going to GERMANY for a student exchange program. Wait, and get this: for SIX MONTHS!  I don’t know what I’m going to do, like I have friends, and I have Ben, but it’s still not the same as having a BEST friend!

I gotta go, but I’ll add onto this later!

Memorised the Way It Felt October 2, 2006

Uhh, homecoming was okay.  It really was all grinding, but Ben mostly just stood there with me, and we were holding hands, and we danced a little,  and kissed…a lot, I guess.

Is it possible to love someone after knowing them for two weeks?  Like, JUST two weeks?  I feel like know him so well, and I’m really sure of myself.  I just don’t want to do something that I’d regret later, or, like he’s not the person I thought he was.  I’m almost positive that’s not the case, and that’s that…but there’s still a little part of me that’s saying “stop!  it’s too fast, stay where you are!”

Well, I was goign to do a photo dump, and I might later, but I still need to edit many of them, so that will have to wait until later.  Thanks for the comments on my other blog!

What is happening? September 30, 2006

Oh, lordy. So I just opened this site, and it really sucks. I’m dropping my old domain, Adhesive Stars. This isn’t a domain, really, actaully not at all. All I wanted was a place to write things, and express my thoughts and such. WordPress lets me do all that. And no, no custom content for you. This is all my site.

Hm..what else? Right, so the homecoming game was tonight. We lost, but that’s beside the point. I went to the game with my friend (well, he’s more than my friend..we’re going to homecoming together, and we kiss), Ben. I told him he’d have to explain everything to me, since I didn’t know what was going on. So we were at the game, and it was like forty-five minutes in, and we were like standing up. I was jumping around a little bit, and the girl behind me kind of tripped a little, and I fell forward. Like, head on into the row bleachers in front of me. I was like SO shocked and suprised…and embarassed. At first, I tried to like play it cool, like it didn’t hurt or anything, but it hurt SO bad! Like, it felt like my head was pulsing..it was awful. So like fifteen minutes of blissful pain went by and I was like yelling and cheering an talking, like I felt okay. But suddenly I like couldn’t take it anymore and I told Ben I’d be in “outside” (lol, that was funny…i was SO out of it!). I like ran up the stairs and kinda tripped a few times, and like RAN to his car! We spent the rest of the night just sitting in the front seats of the car, talking, and me holding ice to my head. It was so awkward and perfect and embarassing all at the same time. If that’s possible.

Uhh…and the homecoming dance is tomorrow. Seriously, like ALL the homecoming is, is GRINDING! Eeek…I’m kinda nervous. I know I can dance, it’s just like..weird. Ah well, I’ll post more tomorrow.

Delilah